Day 3 was my opportunity to embrace “good enough”. The only goal I actually met was “list 5 things I’m grateful for” - I think it took me two minutes. I get an “A” for effort even if it was minimal. The other five things were thought about, maybe started, but not completed.
The new screen plan - had to revise it because of other things we had going on last night. The kids had less screen time overall, but more than I’d like, so I’m going to give myself a “C+” on that one.
I bought the card I’d been meaning to buy, wrote in it, and that’s as far as I got. Sadly, this is as far as most of the cards I buy get. They usually languish on the counter waiting for an address and a stamp until the moment is so far gone that they end up in the garbage. I’ll give myself a “C” for buying the card when I said I would, and because I will find a stamp and mail it today.
Laundry. Does anyone have a laundress anymore? It’s hard to imagine that there are people who never have to do laundry (hmm, three of those people live in my house). I didn’t do ALL the laundry but I did do most of it. I even got things from the dryer, to the basket, and then from the basket to the drawers and closets before the wrinkles set in. This is so huge for me it gets a “B+”.
Found out I’m not reading on Friday, so cheerfully checked off “work on revisions” without doing anything. I did have to send an email to get this information...“D+”.
If you were to ask anyone that knows me well to describe me in five words, “procrastinator” would probably be one of them. It’s the core of this experiment.
Here’s how it goes...I need to do something. Yep, I really have to get that done. I don’t want to do it. I don’t feel like it. I’ll do it eventually. It’ll get done, but not now. I don’t want to do it right now. When is it due? How long will it take me to do it? Take the due date, subtract how long it will take me to do it, and that’s when I’ll start. While I’m waiting for the last possible moment to begin, knowing I have to do it makes me almost as uncomfortable as carrying a paper bag (You know, because paper bags feel scratchy, rough, and are kinda crunchy - irritating enough to give you a shiver. It’s not so awful that you won’t touch them, but you avoid it if you can. You don’t know? Well, trust me, it’s uncomfortable.)
But I still carry this little “to-do” for as long as possible before the panic sets in, and I frantically work to get it done. This is how I’ve always done things. I could argue that I work well under pressure. That it works for me. There’s truth in those arguements. I rarely miss a deadline. I was successful in school and at work. So what’s the problem? It drives me crazy! Maybe the end product would be better if I spent more time - or maybe it wouldn’t. Maybe I should embrace this character trait instead of seeing it as a flaw. As long as it gets done, and gets done well, why does it have to get done early? If it doesn’t get done at all, maybe it wasn’t important and I shouldn’t worry about it. I’m a procrastinator and proud of it! (Yeah, I’m not buying it. I’ll give it some more thought - later.) For this daily goal I get a “C+”. The “C” is for execution the “+” is for effort. I did think about it.
I’m looking at a “C” on meeting my daily goals. This doesn’t feel “good enough”. This feels like underachieving. Like settling. Take a deep breath. This is average. It’s doing well on some things and not so great on others. Wait! I get an “A+” on being sugar free. And an “A” for trying to meet all my goals. For Day 3, I get a “B”!
Good enough.
Day 4
Family: find out when Luke’s English paper is due, and help him make a plan to get it done (procrastination does not work for Luke)
Friends: send that card
Work: check one thing off the “maintenance” list
Writing: write for an hour (Done!! It took me longer than that to write this!)
Habits: don’t check social media or news sites again until 5:00
Whole Health: take all my supplements
Sugar Free Update: I still felt sick yesterday. Woke up feeling better this morning. Hoping I’ve gotten through the detox phase. The hardest thing yesterday was going to Target. That place is a candy minefield! I had to go in, get what I needed, and get out before I had time to grab a bag of M&M’s. Left Target with only the things on my list - I should get extra credit for that!
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